Anam Cara

Here's an interesting thought for the day...

http://www.shambhalawarriors.com/anamcara.html

Just one of the things I've run across in my recent studies. I've been fortunate enough to meet several anam caras in my lifetime. It is a truly wonderful, mystical thing.

Freaking hell...

This is harder than I thought it would be. I told Rick that I just don't see things working out between us in the long run. It kills me to see him in this much pain and know that I'm the cause of it. I just can't stand to see anyone in pain - I feel others pain so deeply - stupid gift(?) of empathy!

A little too much
Today was a little too much for me
A few falls to many
And one win too few

That's playing on the stereo right now - how appropriate. Today was a little too much for me. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope, ready to snap. If I didn't know that God was in control I'd completely loose it right now. Deep breaths, lots of prayer...things will be okay eventually.