It's odd, I'm embarking on a path (divorce) that most Christians would consider a sin not to mention my expanding spirituality that is starting to include/incorporate ideas and concepts that many conservative Christians might term new age or neo pagan. I'm sure many many Christians would look at me right now and say I'm being deceived and led astray by Satan. I've considered that very scary possibility myself. I've been so humbled by the fact that I've looked at other liberal Christians in the past and thought the same of them. I have been so judgmental - how could I not even have been aware of it? That was the deception. I know I'm not being deceived now because of this: sins I have been struggling with for years are just falling away with absolutely no effort on my part. Addictions to food, TV/soap operas, etc. no longer have any hold over me whatsoever. I still have some bad habits to overcome but now it's more a matter of being conscious of what I am doing rather than lack of power to change. I turned on Days of Our Lives yesterday more out of habit than anything and after 5 minutes I was sick of it. What a waste of time and energy. There are so many more important things I could be doing/learning/experiencing/meditating on. I have never felt more spiritually whole in my life. I am closer to God now that I have ever been before. Once I was willing to drop my pre-conceived notions about who God was and how he worked - once I stopped trying to maintain an omnipotent God inside my own little finite mentality's box and opened that box up - wow! It's really beyond words.
On an entirely different note - I have a job interview tomorrow morning at 8am for a temp to hire admin asst. position. This will be the initial interview with the temp agency, then I don't know if they'll just place me or I'll need to interview with the actual people I'd be working for as well. Prayers and/or good thoughts would be appreciated.
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