I don't really like this one, but...

[d_a_r_a]

This is a poem I wrote about 9 or 10 months ago. Something facetiae and I were discussing on her journal made me think of it. It does an okay job of expressing what I am and have been going through as to my own identity and what that means for my marriage. It's really weird to look back that far and realize I've been dealing with these issues for that long. It's not really a poem that I'm happy with - but then I'm probably only truly happy with about 1/10 of the poetry I write.

A Shadow Dies

I am sorry she had to die,
I know how you did love her so.
But she was such a tragic lie,
And therefore she just had to go.

I will not miss her like you will,
Will not shed for her one wet tear.
Do not regret I had to kill,
In order for the haze to clear.

She had to die so I could live.
She only lived because I slept.
She is the one who had to give.
Had it been me she would have wept.

Though I weep, I weep not for her.
She was but a shadow at best.
I weep for the dreams shared now blur,
Love now subjected to this test.