I am not in the least bit sleepy...

[d_a_r_a]

Why is it so quiet around here this weekend? Doesn't seem like but a couple people have updated. Don't you people know you were put on this earth to entertain me? j/k

I'm perfectly capable of entertaining myself. Just look at my recent spate of journal posts. I've been very introspective lately what with everything that is going on. Here's some more thoughts...

I become more convinced every day that Rick and I are just not meant to be. I think I really scared him tonight. Not so much with the whole I'm no longer thinking that hell is an actual physical place but more so with the I'm not sure, but I'm willing to allow that Jesus may not be the only way to God. Jesus is my way - but that may have more to do with how I was raised than anything else.

I had the most interesting AIM chat with please_go_die about Christianity and reincarnation last night. The jury's still out on what I believe about reincarnation, but I'm exploring it. I know Beth firmly believes in it.

I plan on checking out Wendy's church that Beth sometimes attends - Unity. Very open minded - the kind of church that I would have described back in my conservative days as so open minded their brains are falling out. Ironic that the more I study, search, pray, meditate and reflect that my beliefs are falling more and more in line with such extreme liberal Christians. I'm quite certain my brain has not fallen out. In fact, in some ways I feel like I'm learning to use it for myself for the first time. I always assumed liberal Christians believed what they did because it was easier, they could fit into society with less hassles etc. - I didn't realize how much more intellectually strenous such a belief system causes you to be. There are no more easy answers that someone else provides. Everything has to be examined and brought out into the light of day.

Comments

[please-go-die.livejournal.com]

Especially in today's climate, holding a theological belief in contrast to the doctrines of evangelical Protestantism is harder than most people would believe.

"I'm a Christian, but I don't believe in that"--that's what I end up saying a lot during religious conversations.

-Eugene

[d-a-r-a.livejournal.com]

*grin* Good phrase to know - I think I'll probably end up using it a lot too. ;)

[pilgrimsoul.livejournal.com]

Oh, how I can relate to you!! I've been attending Unity for several years now, and found it to be such a welcoming, wonderful place for questioning, spiritual people. I really can't gush enough about it. I've just lately been attending different churches to address some of the questions that have been coming up for me lately ... I hope somehow I'll end up back at Unity, because it's such a special place.

My beliefs still are pretty in line with "extreme liberal Christian," as you put it. It's just the way I'm made. :)

[d-a-r-a.livejournal.com]

Nice to have you around. It's nice to have people you can relate to. I love your user name btw. :)