Spoons...

I know I've posted this before but it's just a reminder to myself and everyone else that even though I don't look sick I have a disability and I need to cut myself some slack in dealing with it. I can only do so much, I need to learn to pace myself. I've been giving Dave too many of my spoons and not having enough left over to do daily chores and other things that need to get done. Spending as much time with him as I did was fine when I wasn't working, but it had become too much for me now that I am working and rather than deal with that and spend less time with him I tried to stretch myself too thin and came to resent Dave for it on some level which totally didn't help things. The article was written by someone with Lupus but as she states at the end it is helpful for understanding anyone with a disability. I, and many others, have found it is VERY applicable to those of us who have fibromyalgia. I've been under loads of stress with a new job, the divorce, selling the house and buying a new one etc. etc - more stress = more fatigue = less spoons and I've been trying to do too much. This will all make sense when you read the following article:

http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/spoons.htm

Edit - I want to make it very clear that Dave did nothing to make me feel obligated to spend as much time with him as I was. Partially I just wanted to spend that much time with him to begin with and then I think that after a while I started to put a sense of obligation to keep it up on myself.