Boredom = quizzes

Dang my sleep schedule is all screwed up. I'm not even approaching sleepy yet. So, what else is there to do at 1am but take some quizzes?

( Cut for those who hate quizzes )

Random late night revelation...

Wow, my life is starting to integrate. Groups of people I used to make an effort to keep separate are merging - right here on LJ in fact. I am making more and more people aware of my journal. I no longer feel the need to hide it and all my issues from people. I used to be enough ashamed of myself and my thoughts, feelings, etc. to not want many of my "real life" friends, family etc. to even know my journal existed. I'm learning just to be me - people can accept or reject that. If they reject who I am then I just plain don't need them. I no longer am imprisoned within the need for others' approval!

Oh look - another quote from the Tao Te Ching:

9

Fill your bowl to the brim
and it will spill.
Keep sharpening your knife
and it will blunt.
Chase after money and security
and your heart will never unclench.
Care about people's approval
and you will be their prisoner.

Do your work, then step back.
The only path to serenity.

Why did I not read this before?

I bought this book after the horrible emotional ordeal I endured at the hands of other Christians in Mexico because I knew on some level I had trusted people I should not have trusted. The book, Safe People: How To Find Relationships That Are Good For You And Avoid Those That Aren't, has been sitting on my book shelf ever since. I believe I started to read it back then - early in 1999 - but never got very far into it. If I had read it then I could have avoided so much additional pain and heartache in countless unsafe relationships I've endured. But I think on some level I wasn't ready yet to hear it's message. I get it now. Wow do I get it. I'm finally growing up and it's not the horrible thing I always thought it would be. I get it. I understand. The personal growth I'm experiencing is phenomenal. It's like a veil has finally been lifted and I can actually see clearly for the first time in my life.